I'm BAAAAAAACK

I have to say, I am doing much better at visiting my blog lately....good for me!

Tomorrow is another Chiefs game, and I am ready. My ranting/hurt feelings time has passed, guess we all have a bad game now and then right? Tomorrow we face the Eagles, and although McNabb is hurting, I think it will be quite a challenge. We do have home field advantage (loudest stadium in the NFL) so looking to move to 3/1 here at home.

I am moved to get my house work done today, so I can have tomorrow completely free....plus have put off the housework for 3 days (I work 8 - 10 hour days, then off for 6). Hubby is starting to give me the "What did you do all day??" look. To his credit, he hasn't actually spoken the words yet.

Something kind of sad; read one of my very best friends blogs today, and she is very busy, so like myself, they were a little far between entries. My point is, she was going through something very painful, and I didn't even know it. She never even shared it with me via the easy 'invite your friends to join' thing that we find in so many of our virtual communities. Guess I haven't been a great friend:( We haven't spoken for quite some time. We have fallen into the 'email every so often/ask about the family/yes I'm still breathing thing.' I moved here to Kansasa City, MO over 2 years ago, and was so delighted that I was going to be near my best friend. Several months after I moved here, she moved about an hour's drive away.....no big deal, what's an hour?? I guess it is quite a lot....as we never see one another anymore.

Something new for me to comtemplate.....when did I get this way?? Was it suddenly, or has it just gradually happened? I am betting on the second, think I just sort of eased into the hermit existence I now think of as normal. AND -- ya know what??? It has not been a good thing!! I am in the worse physical shape of my life. I no longer feel good about myself, when my husband tells me I'm beautiful, I am sure down deep that he is 'just being nice.' I can sometimes(?) be very stubborn, but you know what??? I just this very moment figured out something!! As much as I would like to think it is, it can't be 'everybody else.' I put myself just where I sit today, and it's about Damn time I do something about it!

I am making a promise to myself, the very least I can do is get off my big butt, and get the hell out of the house.......to start, I am going to walk at least 30 minutes per day (actually gonna go outside to do it too!).
I will keep track of operation 'find me' right here on my trusty blog. Wish me luck!! When you are at the bottom, there is only one way to go right?