How come....

...shit happens?? I know......dumb question, it just does. Well, I guess I am a day earlier than usual for my post -- but will post WI tomorrow. Today, I just feel like writing. What better way to get things off your chest / out in the open / clear the air and so on and so forth.

Let me begin by doing a little recap of how my life has been going lately. Last WI, I did really well -- lost 1.4 -- being in a plateau, that was really good. Guess what I did after losing 1.4 (let me rephrase -- after FINALLY having a halfway decent loss...). I totally sabotaged myself! I ate like a pig -- compared to the way I usually eat. Got stressed out, and didn't exercise all week. Of course I will have a big gain tomorrow -- but who can complain about that?? I did it to myself!

A couple weekends ago, my daughter decided to stay out all night, and then tell lie after lie. Hmmm, maybe your relationship isn't what you thought it was ?? She is 19, and grown....but guess a mother always worries. Especially when you think you have such wonderful communication with you children (yeah - right!!). So, I was very upset with her for about 4 days. Never did get an apology, or the truth. Anyway, took me those several days to finally get over the "poor me" "my feelings are hurt" and realize that something was up with her. That was what was important, the lies/hurt were just symptons, doesn't make you feel any better, but have to understand that something made these things happen. Anyway.......finally had a talk with her. Things seem a little better, guess we'll see.

I am just a huge stickler for being lied to. It is the one thing I hate above all others. I am one of those people that are freaky about it.....when someone has to lie about something small and insignificant, then what else are they lying about??

Today, a good friend lied to me. The thing that bothers me is that it was over something that didn't matter. So, now I am stuck wondering what else has been lied about? I understand 'little white lies' that are meant to NOT hurt feelings -- telling someone that a bad haircut looks good would be a good example of that. I just find myself wondering if there is really such a thing as complete trust? Sadly, I think not. Oh well........so much for "being totally honest with one another."

Well.........got things that need doing........just upset today......ready for a vacation from my life!!
Thanks for listening :)

T

Well...

lost 1.4 -- is the plateau broken?? That remains to be seen. Lost 2 lbs 6 weeks ago.... and then was back to the up/down thing. Hoping that I am on the right track though. I did earn 17 activity points, and didn't eat any of them.......did eat all flex except 1. Was going to try the Wendie plan, but think I will stick to this (it is pretty close to WP) and see what next week brings.

11/11 194.0

11/15 191.2

11/23 187.2

11/29 186.8

12/09 182.6

12/16 180.4

12/23 177.0

12/30 175.8

01/06 174.6

01/13 173.8

01/20 169.0

01/27 168.0

02/03 168.4

02/10 166.4

02/17 166.8

02/24 166.0

03/03 165.4

03/10 166.2

03/17 164.8

So........will just keep on keepin on..........8 away from 30 total lbs gone.........hope I am over that next week!!

I'm green...

...with envy over the woman in front of me at WW that lost 4.6 lbs!!! I am up .8 this week -- UGH!!!!! I am now in week 8 of this plateau. I talked a little bit to one of the women there, and got a sheet on plateaus. This week I will : DRINK *LOTS* OF WATER and EARN ACTIVITY POINTS but NOT trade them in for points. Going to stick only to my daily points allowance, and flex points and see what happens. I earn around 3 activity points per day at least 4 days per week, and have been switching them for food. Not this week!!

11/11 194

11/15 191.2

11/23 187.2

11/29 186.8

12/09 182.6

12/16 180.4

12/23 177.0

12/30 175.8

01/06 174.6

01/13 173.8

01/20 169.0

01/27 168.0

02/03 168.4

02/10 166.4

02/17 166.8

02/24 166.0

03/03 165.4

03/10 166.2

I WILL do this!! I can beat it! Going to stick to the plan Stan!

Wedding Gown Weekend

My future daughter in-law came up this past weekend to shop for her wedding gown. We actually found a beautiful dress - it is perfect for her!! I felt badly because her mother chose to not come along, and really missed out. BUT, I am the lucky one, I got her all to myself! She and my son are getting married on June 4th in Wichita, KS. I will certainly post pictures when the event has come and gone. She says she is lucky to have us for a family, in reality, she is ALREADY a part of our family, and we love her like one of our own. My son has good taste (get's that from his mother!!).

On this journey...

...I am learning patience!! I lost .6 this week -- but seeing how this has been a crappy plateau, will certainly take it!! I do my WAP 3 mile w/3lb weights, and have added the Ab Lounge 2. So even though the scales are being stubborn, can see some progress :)

11/11 194

11/15 191.2

11/23 187.2

11/29 186.8

12/09 182.6

12/16 180.4

12/23 177.0

12/30 175.8

01/05 174.6

01/13 173.8

01/20 169.0

01/27 168.0

02/03 168.4

02/10 166.4

02/17 166.8

02/24 166.0

03/03 165.4

28.6 down!!! Can't wait to hit 30 lbs gone:)