My post today is not about ME, not about being depressed, not about starting to actually feel better about myself -- this post is dedicated to my husband of 20 years; Mark.
My husband makes me mad A LOT!! He doesn't listen to me most of the time, and it drives me crazy. He curses way to much, and he makes embarrassing comments in public. He talks WAY to much! He lies a lot. He just noticed that YES he really is going bald! It is hard to tell if he is actually going to do what he commits to do, be it fixing my dryer hose (been without hot water for 6 mos. now) or the kitchen drawer that snagged my favorite Chiefs shirt, or fixing the light switch in the kids' bedroom.....you get the picture. He is at Wal Mart, and has called me three times since I started this post, because he can't find the bisquits he wants....and the lunch meat....and oh yeah! is it OK if I buy a new water jug for work, it's five dollars. Yep, he does a lot of things wrong.
This is the same man that tells me I am beautiful and means it. He overlooks my moodiness (yes....TOM coming again soon) instead of getting annoyed with me. He loves his children and I with all of his heart. He took me out last night for dinner, just because he hadn't been able to for so long -- this after working a 10 hour day of overtime, actually today is his first day off in weeks, and he is shopping for dinner. He recently bought me a beautiful new wedding ring set, nevermind that we all needed new underwear. He always has a kind word for everyone. The little girls next door draw him pictures, and write him notes, taping them to our front door, just because they see in him what I so often times overlook; kindness, someone who thinks that even though they are only 'the little girls next door' that they are always important enough to have a word with, someone who will help anyone he can, many times at his own expense. Someone who is truly kind and loving.
He doesn't have as much schooling as many men, he doesn't use fancy words, and he can't spell for shit. This man above all has given me 4 wonderful children, all special, all unique, all caring and loving individuals.
I think it is about time I start thanking God that he has choosen to bless me with this individual. What more could I ask for? Thank you God. Thank you for blessing me with this man who is just crazy enough to make me smile, and who chooses to love me as much as he does, despite all my short comings, and there are to many short comings to list... Thank You from the bottom of my heart.